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Well, that was a bust. It turns out I'm back to square one in the roommate department. It all went amicably, though. My mood is sour because of other things. (And the fact that I now have to pick another plan. But whatever.)

I at least got the names of some of the girls in the apartments with the open spots at Northgate and have looked them up on Facebook. I just feel immensely frustrated. I hate being in this situation in the first place. I even considered a one bedroom at Tivoli, but they're full and on a waiting list, but I at least put my name down.

I'm really upset that this didn't work out because it means I'm going to be the lone one in some apartment somewhere. No, I didn't like Pegasus Connection, but if I had chosen to live there, I would have at least felt like my room was someplace people might like to be. I've never had the place where people come over to. I've had the inconvenient spot and I want my friends to feel like they can just come visit me whenever. At Stetson it was just...horribly inconvenient for other reasons, but even here I have loud roommates who've marked their territory all over the apartment, in a manner of speaking, so I feel almost like an intruder in my own home. I wanted to have a place that people would want to be for once. Now I'm going to continue never having people want to come over to my place, and that really, really sucks.

I hate this so much.

Edit: I swear to God, the next time I see "betch" somewhere I'm going to punch something. I'm SO sick of it. Not. Funny. Any. More.